Life is rough, no one is about to deny that fact. Rich, poor or somewhere in between, life happens and it’s not always full of rainbows and unicorns. How I wish that it was that way, but reality bites hard at times.
I’m just like you in many ways, I’m sure. I have good days and bad days and those days that absolutely nothing is going right. I also have days when all it takes is one thing to change the direction of the rest of my waking hours. That also affects those that I come in contact with during those hours be it family, friends, co-workers or strangers on the street. Life is a circle, and attitude is an effect that touches everything around us.
I had one of “those moments” yesterday. The sudden realization that I do not want to feel this way any longer. Quite simple really. I’m tired of my negative attitude toward life, and I’m pretty certain that my family is as well. So I spent a lot of hours in deep thought about turning negative thought processes into positive ones. Realist ones, not full of corny, silly, make believe moments, but a change within that would help me view life with a more positive viewpoint and attitude. One thing I came to realize immediately was… it’s not going to be an easy fix. No. Once negativity gets hold of you it does not want to let go. For every five positive thoughts I had last evening, four were quickly cut down into but here’s the other negative side of that. *huge sigh* Yeah, this is going to take some work.
So, I though I would share this journey with you. Feedback is one way to see what we’re doing from a different direction. And while my personal self-esteem is often in the basement, I’m willing to make a few changes to the way I view and live my life in the hopes of liking myself a bit more. If that describes your thoughts as well, then I’ll invite you to follow along. Weekly posts (more if I feel the need to “talk it out”) on gaining control over the negative aspects of life and re-thinking them into a positive attitude.
So I made a decision this evening. And the truth is that I’m absolutely scared outta my head right now. Why? Because I’ve failed miserably at losing weight all my life – and now in my 60’s I’m suddenly thinking I can do that. That’s scary, folks.
Yet the truth is that this is something I need to do for myself. Not at a doctor’s insistence, not to impress anyone – but for my own peace of mind.
I signed up with LoseIt – this is a place that my son went to in order to track his eating habits with the goal of losing weight in the back of his mind. So far he’s lost almost 30 pounds by eating differently and tracking everything he eats. Not a diet, but food choices. And perhaps that’s the way to think of this to be successful. Diet is such an ugly word.
According to LoseIt, in order to keep my goal to lose 1 and 1/2 pounds per week I will reach my goal by mid-July 2018. A little over a year from today.
What’s a year, really if I can add more viable, enjoyable years to my life? Not that much time actually. It’s do-able. It’s realistic. But it’s still scary.
I strongly believe that the choices we make fuel our lives with positive or negative reactions. No, not some Zen-like level of being – although a Zen lifestyle works for thousands of people. What I’m talking about is getting up every morning and making the choice to do things that are healthy. Things that are good for your body and your soul.
Personally, I live a very stress filled life as a caregiver for a family member. I began to see the effects of that stress in many ways that added even more to my plate as I began to worry about my own health, and how that might affect the person in my care.
I came to a place where I had to make a choice. I could continue living a negative lifestyle, eating the wrong foods, very little exercise, horrible sleep habits and depending on medications to counter my emotional reactions to this situation I deal with daily. OR. I could make some changes and begin taking care of myself.
Loving ourselves seems such a misunderstood concept. It’s not ego. It’s not arrogance. It’s not some higher level thinking that sees yourself as better than anyone else. No, it’s very simply respecting yourself enough to be comfortable loving the person you are totally and being willing to tend to your own needs as importantly as you tend to others.